"I'm tired of being what you want me to be; feeling so faithless, lost under the surface! Don't know what your expecting of me, put under the pressure of walking in your shoes!" Those are the opening lyrics to Linkin Park's song "Numb". Lately, I have really connected with them. It's as if they made this song for me.
Sometimes your in a situation in which your feelings just aren't so easy to express. You know exactly what's going on; because your the one that these things are happening to, yet you just can't find the right words to articulate it. You feel all alone and you don't think anyone could understand you even if you did try talking about it.
Then one day your mind ponders the thoughts that would be furthest away from your troubles. You might be driving your car, with your windows down and sunroof open. Your just sitting back and enjoying the cool breeze. Then a song on the radio plays. You've heard a million times before, but this time the words seem to be more vivid. It reminds you of your troubles, but not in a bad way. And you realize, these are the words you have been looking for. You get this feeling of serenity deep down inside; this is what you have been feeling. Each word makes you flashback to specific moments that you tried to explain what was really going on. It 's as if the artist is trying to say 'I understand you, your not alone.' These words are your words; this song is your song. It was made just for you.
I'm done living in the past, I have a bright future ahead of me. I know my friends and family mean well, but I can't live for them. I won't be able to live vicariously through them either. From now on I live and act based on my own expectations; but I welcome them to give any aid, support, encouragement, and/or advice. If I want a bright future, I'm going to need as much help as I can get.
When I was first presented with the idea of "blogging", I brushed it off. It was something I thought only tech geeks did. Second, I dismissed the idea because I consider myself to be a personal individual. I'm not one to tell people my troubles and worries. However, now I see it differently.
Blogs are both personally beneficial and productive. One thing that I have really been trying to do is enhance my writing skills and creativity. I'm not all together sure what kind of job I'll have after I graduate, but what I do know is that I want to be a captivating writer and a great communicator. What better way to do that than to consistently write.
I'll be using this blog as a chronicle of my interesting daily occurrences, an outlet, to express my ideas, to express my feelings, and to share any tidbit of knowledge I have in my dome for a head.
Hopefully, you will be able to find some of my words to be your words.
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